| i hear ashok bharti start to
sing again
where am i…where have i been…who am i
he is dancing with joy…i know why…he knows i know why
i will keep my secret till i have grown my wings
and he makes me fly into the world to rejoice and sing his song
to dance his dance…to share his overflowing love
i am in bliss and totally grateful to existence for all it has given me
his presence is a deep dive into eternity
this one meeting is eternal
i need to absorb all that he has showered into me this evening
drink totally and not waste a single drop
i do not want to disturb bhagwan any more
my reverence towards him to maintain a sacred distance
i want to keep myself on my toes and not take him for granted
i know he is pouring everything into me
i must prepare a deeper well to deserve and drink more
let other thirsty fellow travellers drink
the place is small…many want to meet him
make space for others…give them their chance…they all need him
i remain eternally grateful to ma laxmi for the pass
i return blissfully to poona
the last desire to physically see him also complete
now i must go in deeper and make the most of those precious moments
i was fortunate to receive in sumila
go in and prepare for a deeper receiving of the master
i sit alone
so many layers had opened and i needed time
to melt into its understanding and begin to grow inwards
it dawns upon me the sheer magnitude of the experiences confronting me
the sheer unrealised implications of what transpired
during that dark night of the soul
the grace and compassion of the descent of the
greatest buddha
gautama the buddha…his blessings
my inexperience and unconsciousness in the struggle out of fear
and begin to realise that bhagwan was safeguarding
his promised astral body known as maitreya
everything had happened so suddenly with no
preparation
i had been mentally emotionally physically unprepared
i wish i had just let go…and even if i had died
they were there to take care of my return to the body
i was feeling deeply guilty
but i was only human and frail
this too shall pass
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