they all started to whisper
that i think that i am enlightened
that i am pretending to be bhagwani was
amazed…had they somehow all become mind readers
that they could now read my mind
and decide for themselves what i was thinking
and then say that this was what i was thinking
i realised this was just the beginning of more
ugliness ahead
this was the real world that i was entering into
the world of spiritual egos…power trips
competition…judgement…jealousy…crucifixion
no one even bothered to come close to me
close their eyes…ask me what had happened
just being human…as a fellow traveller
they had all decided for themselves
judge…jury…guilty without trial… punishment
and announce their judgement to all
great seekers of truth
they would not leave me alone
suddenly everyone became my master
continuously coming to tell me about my ego
my sickness…and the cure…to drop my ego
all without my asking
nor my permission to be examined by their measuring tape
i was beginning to see masters all around me
i felt compassion for them
i knew they had actually understood clearly
that something had happened to me
and this was their obvious jealousy
i would learn to live with this with silent compassion
i could see every person living was actually in search
of truth
in whatever way they were moving
good or bad…right or wrong
they were all searching for truth
truth was the source of all life
birth death and rebirth
to move on to evolve
into truth itself
the circle is complete
where this orgasmic universe evolves
to such a height of consciousness
that it can see itself...perceive itself
and celebrate itself through enlightenment
i wished enlightenment for all living beings
having seen the vast being of light bhagwan
and seeing my own being
just a baby…just born
i realise that i had just experienced enlightenment
and that there was more…much much more
for me i had only moved from being a disciple
to becoming a devotee
for the first time i realised the beauty and grace
of being a devotee…my eyes were opened
now i am truly his devotee with an open eye
i know his deepest secret
i always see him i place my experience of
enlightenment at his feet
it is pale in comparison with what i have seen of bhagwan
i will need to go deeper…deepen and broaden the experience
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