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Vigyan Bhairav Tantra - Meditation
Technique 86 SUPPOSE YOU
CONTEMPLATE SOMETHING BEYOND PERCEPTION, BEYOND GRASPING, BEYOND NOT
BEING - YOU
Osho - SUPPOSE YOU CONTEMPLATE SOMETHING BEYOND PERCEPTION --
that which cannot be seen, which cannot be perceived. But can you
imagine something which cannot be seen? Imagination is always of that
which can be seen. How can you imagine something, how can you suppose
something, which cannot be perceived?
That which you can perceive you can imagine. You cannot even dream
something which is not capable of being seen and perceived. That's why
even your dreams are shadows of reality. Even your imagination is not
pure imagination, because whatsoever you can imagine you have known
somehow. You can create new combinations, but all the elements of the
combination are known and perceived.
You can imagine a golden mountain flying in the sky like a cloud. You
have not perceived such a thing ever, but you have perceived a cloud,
you have perceived a mountain, you have perceived gold. These three
elements can be combined. Imagination is not original; it is always a
combination of something you have perceived.
This technique says:
SUPPOSE YOU CONTEMPLATE SOMETHING
BEYOND PERCEPTION
It is impossible, b ut that's why it is worth doing, because in the very
effort something will happen to you. Not that you will become capable of
perceiving -- if you try to perceive something which cannot be
perceived, all perception will be lost. In the very effort, if you try
to see something which you have never seen, all that you have ever seen
will disappear.
If you persist in the effort, many images will come to you -- you have
to discard them, because you know that you have seen this; this can be
perceived. You may not have seen it actually as it is, but even if you
can imagine it, it can be perceived. Discard it. Go on discarding. This
technique says to persist for that which cannot be perceived.
What will happen? If you go on discarding, it is going to be an arduous
effort, because many images will bubble up. Your mind will supply many
images, many dreams; many conceptions will come, many symbols. Your mind
will create now combinations, but go on discarding unless something
happens which cannot be perceived. What is that?
If you go on discarding, nothing will happen to you as an object; only
the screen of the mind will be there with no image, with no symbol, with
no dream on it, no picture on it. In that moment a metamorphosis
happens. When the screen is simply there without any image, you become
aware of yourself. You become aware of the perceiver. When there is
nothing to be perceived, the whole attention changes. The whole
consciousness reflects back. When you have nothing to see, for the first
time you become aware of your own self. You start seeing yourself.
This sutra says:
SUPPOSE YOU CONTEMPLATE SOMETHING
BEYOND PERCEPTION,
BEYOND GRASPING,
BEYOND NOT BEING
-- YOU.
Then you happen to yourself. For the first time you will become aware of
the one who has been perceiving, who has been grasping, who has been
knowing. But this subject is always hidden in objects. You know certain
things but you never know the knower. The knower is lost in knowledge.
I see you, then I see someone else, and this procession goes on. From
birth to death I will see this and that and that, and I will go on
seeing and seeing. And the seer, the one who was seeing this procession,
is forgotten; it is lost in the crowd. The crowd is of objects, and the
subject is lost.
This sutra says if you try to CONTEMPLATE SOMETHING BEYOND PERCEPTION,
BEYOND GRASPING -- which you cannot grasp by the mind -- BEYOND NOT
BEING... Immediately the mind will say that if there is something which
cannot be seen and cannot be grasped, it is not. The mind will
immediately react that if something is not seeable, not perceivable, not
graspable, then it is not. The mind will say that it doesn't exist.
Don't become a victim of the mind.
This sutra says: ... BEYOND PERCEPTION, BEYOND GRASPING, BEYOND NOT
BEING. The mind will say that this is nothing, this cannot exist, this
is a not-being. The sutra says, don't believe in it. There is something
which is being beyond not-being, which exists and which cannot be
perceived, and which is not graspable: that is you.
You cannot perceive yourself, or can you? Can you imagine any situation
in which you can encounter yourself, in which you can know yourself? You
can go on using the word `self-knowledge', which is absolutely absurd,
because you cannot know the self. The self is always the knower. It
cannot be reduced to a known, it cannot be reduced to an object.
For example, if you think that you can know the self, then the self that
you know will not be your self, but the one who is knowing the self will
be the self. You will always remain the knower; you cannot become the
known. You cannot put yourself in front of you; you will always recede
back. Whatsoever you know cannot be yourself -- this means that you
cannot know it. You cannot know it the way you know other things.
I cannot see myself the way I see you. Who will see? Because every
relationship of knowledge, seeing, perception, melans that there are at
least two things: the known and the knower. Self-knowledge is not
possible in this sense, because there is only one. There the knower and
the known are one; the observer and the observed are one. You cannot
convert yourself into an object.
So the word `self-knowledge' is just wrong, but it connotes something,
it says something which is true. You can know yourself in a very
different sense, in an altogether different sense than from how you know
other things. When there is nothing to be known, when all objects have
disappeared, when all that can be perceived and grasped is no more, when
you have discarded all, suddenly you become aware of yourself. And this
awareness is not dual: there is no object and no subject. There is
simply subjectivity.
This awareness is a different type of knowing. This awareness gives you
a different dimension of existence. You are not divided in two. You are
aware of yourself. You are not perceiving, you cannot grasp it, and yet
it is existential -- the most existential.
Try to think in this way. We have energy: that energy goes on moving to
objects. Energy cannot be static. Remember it as one of the ultimate
laws: energy cannot be static, it is dynamic. It cannot be otherwise.
Dynamism is its very nature -- energy moves. When I see you, my energy
moves towards you. When I perceive you, a circle is made. My energy
moves to you, then it comes back to me -- a circle is made.
If my energy moves to you and doesn't come back, I will not know you. A
circle is needed: the energy must go and then come back to me. With its
coming back it bring you to me. I know you. Knowledge means that energy
has made a circle. It has moved from the subject to the object, and then
it has moved again and come back to the original source. If I go on
living in this way -- making circles with others -- I will never know
myself, because my energy is filled with energies of others. It brings
those images, it delivers those images to me. This is how you gather
knowledge.
This technique says to allow the object to disappear from there. Allow
your energy to move in a vacuum, in emptiness. It goes from you, but
there is no object to be grasped by it, not object to be perceived by
it. It moves and comes back to you through emptiness; there is no
object. It brings no knowledge to you. It comes vacant, empty, pure. It
brings nothing. It brings only itself. It comes virgin -- nothing has
entered into it; it remains pure.
This is the whole process of meditation. You are sitting silently, your
energy is moving. There is no object with which it can be contaminated,
with which it can become entangled, with which it can become impressed,
with which it can become one. Then you bring it back to yourself. There
is no object, no thought, no image. Energy moves, the movement is pure,
and then it comes back to you -- virgin. As it left you it comes; it
carries nothing. An empty vehicle, it comes to you, it hits you. There
is no knowledge carried by it; it is coming only by itself. In that
penetration of pure energy you become aware of yourself.
If your energy is bringing something else, then you will become aware of
that something. You look at a flower. The energy is bringing the flower
to you -- the image of the flower, the smell of the flower, the color of
the flower. The energy is bringing the flower to you. It is introducing
you to the flower. Then you become acquainted with the flower. The
energy is covered by the flower. You never become acquainted with the
energy, the pure energy which is you. You are moving to the other and
coming back to the source.
If there is nothing to impress it, if it comes unconditioned, if it
comes as it had gone, if it brings itself, nothing else, you become
aware of yourself. This is a pure circle of energy -- energy moving not
to something else, but within you, creating a circle within you. Then
there is no one else, only you moving within yourself. This movement
becomes self-knowledge, self-illumination. Basically, all meditation
techniques, all of them, are different variations of this.
SUPPOSE YOU CONTEMPLATE SOMETHING
BEYOND PERCEPTION,
BEYOND GRASPING,
BEYOND NOT BEING
-- YOU.
If this can happen, then for the first time you will become aware of
yourself, of your being, of your existence -- the subjectivity.
Knowledge is of two kinds: knowledge of objects, and knowledge of the
subjectivity. Knowledge of the known, the knowable, and knowledge of the
knower. And a man can know millions and millions of things, he can
become acquainted with the whole world, but if he is not aware of the
knower he is ignorant. He may be knowledgeable, but he is not wise. He
may have collected much information, much knowledge, but the basic thing
which makes one a knower is lacking -- he is not aware of himself.
In the Upanishads there is a story. Svetaketu, a young boy, came back
from his master to his home. He had passed all his examinations, and he
had passed well. All that the master could give him, he had collected.
He had become very egoistic.
When he reached his father's house, the first thing the father asked
Svetaketu was this: `You seem to be too filled with knowledge, and your
knowledge is making you very egoistic -- the way you walk, the way you
have entered the house. I have only one question to ask you. Have you
known that who knows all? Have you known that by knowing which
everything is known? Have you known yourself?'
Svetaketu said, `But there was no course for it in the school, and the
master never discussed it. I have known everything that can be known.
You ask me anything and I ill answer you. But what type of question are
you raising? It was never discussed.'
The father said, `Then you go back, and unless you know that by knowing
which everything is known, and without knowing which nothing is known,
don't come back. First know yourself.'
Svetaketu went back. He asked the master, `My father says I cannot be
allowed to go back home, I cannot be welcomed there, because he says
that in our family we have been Brahmins not only by birth. We have been
knowers, knowers of Brahma, Brahmins, not only by birth but by real
authentic knowledge. So he said, "Unless you become a real Brahmin, not
by birth, but by knowing the Brahma, by knowing the ultimate, don't
enter the house. You are not worthy of us." So now teach me that.'
The teacher said, `All that can be taught I have taught you. And that is
something which cannot be taught. So you do one thing: you simply be
available for it. It cannot be directly taught. You simply be receptive;
some day it will happen. You take all the cows of the ashram...' The
ashram had many cows; they say four hundred. `You take all the cows to
the forest. Remain with the cows: stop thinking, stop verbalizing, just
become a cow. Remain with the cows, love them, and be silent as cows are
silent. When the cows become one thousand, come back.'
So Svetaketu went with four hundred cows to the forest. There was no use
in thinking, there was no one to talk to. By and by his mind became just
like a cow. He sat silently under the trees, and for many years he had
to wait, because only when the cows became one thousand could he come
back. By and by language disappeared from his mind. By and by society
disappeared from his mind. By and by he became not a human being at all.
His eyes became just like cows'.
And the story is very beautiful. The story says he forgot how to count
-- because if language disappears and verbalizations disappears.... He
forgot how to count, he forgot when he had to return. The story is
beautiful. The cows said, `Svetaketu, now we are one thousand. Now let
us go back to the master's house. He must be waiting.'
Svetaketu came back, and the master said to the other disciples, `Count
the cows.'
The cows were counted and the disciples said, `Yes, there are one
thousand cows.'
And the master is reported to have said, `Not one thousand, one thousand
and one -- that's Svetaketu.'
He was standing amidst the cows, silent, just being there, with no
thought, with no mind. Just like a cow -- pure, simple, innocent. And
the master said, `You need not enter. Now go back to your father's
house. You have known; it has happened to you. Why have you come again
to me? It has happened to you.'
It happens: when there is no object in the mind to know, the knower
happens to you. When the mind is not filled by thoughts, when there is
not a single ripple, when there is not a single wave, you are there
alone. There is nothing other than you. Obviously you become aware of
your self; for the first time you become filled by yourself. A
self-illumination happens.
This sutra is one of the foundational ones. Try it. It is arduous,
because the habit of thinking, the habit of clinging to objects, to that
which can be perceived and that which can be grasped, is so deep-rooted,
so ingrained, that it will take time and a very persistent effort not to
be involved in objects, not to be involved in thoughts, but to just
become a witness and discard them and say, `No, not this, not this.'
The whole technique of the Upanishads is condensed in two words; NETI,
NETI -- not this, not this. Whatsoever comes to the mind, say, `Not
this.' Go on saying and discarding and throwing all the furniture out.
The room has to be empty, totally empty. When emptiness is there, then
that happens. If something else is there you go on being impressed by
it, and you cannot know yourself. Your innocence is lost in objects. A
thought-ridden mind is moving outwards. You cannot be related to
yourself.
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