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Vigyan Bhairav Tantra - Meditation
Technique 67
HERE IS THE SPHERE OF CHANGE, CHANGE, CHANGE. THROUGH
CHANGE CONSUME CHANGE
The first thing to understand is that everything you know about is
change; except for you, the knower, everything is change. Have you seen
anything which is not change? This whole world is a phenomenon of
change. Even the Himalayas are changing. They say -- the scientists who
work on it -- that they are growing; these Himalayas are the youngest
mountains in the world, still a child, really, still growing. They have
not yet become mature; they have not reached to the point from where
something begins to decline. They are still rising.
If you compare them with Vindhyachal, another mountain, they are just
children. Vindhyachal is one of the oldest -- and some say the oldest
mountain in the world. It is so old, it is decreasing -- coming down.
For centuries, it is coming down -- just dying, in its old age. So even
a Himalaya which looks so stable, unchanging, unmoving, is changing. It
is just a river of stones. Stones make no difference; they are also
river-like, floating. Comparatively everything is changing. Something
looks more changing, something looks less changing, but that is only
relative.
Nothing is unchanging that you can know. Remember my point: nothing that
you can know is unchanging. Nothing is unchanging except the knower. But
that is always behind. It always "knows"; it is really never known. It
can never become the object; it is always the subject. Whatsoever you do
or know, it is always behind. You cannot know it. When I say this, don't
get disturbed. When I say that you cannot know it, I mean you cannot
know it as an object. I can look at you, but how can I look at myself in
the same way? It is impossible because to be in a relationship of
knowledge two things are needed -- the knower and the known.
So when I look at you, you are the known and I am the knower, and the
knowledge can exist as a bridge. But where to make the bridge when I
look at myself, when I am trying to know myself? There only I am, alone
-- totally alone. The other bank is missing, so where to create the
bridge? How to know myself?
So self-knowledge is a negative process. You cannot know yourself
directly; you can simply go on eliminating objects of knowledge. Go on
eliminating the objects of knowledge. When there is no object of
knowledge, when you cannot know anything, when there is nothing but the
vacuum, the emptiness -- and this is what meditation is: just
eliminating all objects of knowledge -- then a moment comes when
consciousness is, but there is nothing to be conscious of; knowing is,
but there is nothing to know. The simple, pure energy of knowing remains
and nothing is left to be known. There is no object.
In that state when there is nothing to be known, it is said that you
know yourself in a certain sense. But that KNOWLEDGE is totally
different from all other knowledge. It is misleading to use the same
word for both. There have been mystics who have said that self-knowledge
is contradictory, the very term is contradictory. Knowledge is always of
the other; self-knowledge is not possible. But when the other is not,
something happens. You may call it "self-knowledge," but the word is
misleading.
So whatsoever you know is change. Everywhere, even these walls, are
constantly changing. Now physics supports this. Even the wall which
looks so stationary, non-changing, is changing every moment. A great
flux is on. Every atom is moving, every electron is moving. Everything
is moving fast, and the movement is so fast that you cannot detect it.
That is why the wall looks so permanent. In the morning it was like
this, in the afternoon it was like that, in the evening it was like
this, yesterday it was like this and tomorrow it will be like this. You
look at it as if it is the same, but it is not. Your eyes are not
capable of detecting such great movement.
The fan is there. If the fan is moving very fast, you will not be able
to see the space, it will look like just one circle. Space cannot be
seen because the movement is fast, and if the movement is so fast --
just as fast as electrons are moving -- you will not see that the fan is
moving at all. You will not be able to detect the movement. The fan will
look stationary; you will even be able to touch it. It will be
stationary, and your hand will not even be able to enter into the gaps,
because your hand cannot move so fast as to go into the gaps. Before you
move, another blade will have come. Before you move, still another blade
will have come. You will always touch the blade, and the movement will
be so fast that the fan will look like it is non-moving. So things that
are non-moving are very fast moving: that is why there is the appearance
that they are stationary.
This sutra says that everything is change: "HERE IS THE SPHERE OF
CHANGE..." On this sutra Buddha's whole philosophy stands. Buddha says
that everything is a flux, changing, non-permanent, and that one should
know this. Buddha's emphasis is so much on this point. His whole
standpoint is based on it. He says, "change, change, change: remember
this continuously." Why? If you can remember change, detachment will
happen. How can you be attached when everything is changing?
You look at a face; it is very beautiful. When you look at a face that
is very beautiful, there is a feeling that this is going to remain.
Understand it deeply. Never expect that this is going to remain. But if
you know that this is changing fast, that this is beautiful this moment
and it may be ugly the next, how can you feel any attachment? It is
impossible. Look at a body: it is alive; the next moment it will be
dead. All is futile, if you feel the change.
Buddha left his palace, his family -- his beautiful wife, his child --
and when someone asked him, "Why?" he said, "Where there is nothing
permanent, what is the use? The child will die." And the night Buddha
left, the child was born. He was just a few hours old. Buddha went into
his wife's room to have a last look. The wife's back was towards the
door. She was holding the child in her arms in sleep. Buddha wanted to
say goodbye, but then he resisted. He said, "What is the use?"
A moment came in his mind when a thought flashed that "The child is just
one day old, a few hours old, and I must have a look." But then he said,
"What is the use? Everything is changing. This day the child is born,
and the next day the child will die. And one day before he was not here.
Now he is here, and one day again he will not be here. So what is the
use? Everything is changing." He left -- turned back and left.
When someone asked, "Why have you left all that?" he said, "I am in
search of that which never changes, because if I stick to that which
changes there is going to be frustration. If I cling to that which is
changing, I am stupid, because it will change, it will not remain the
same. Then I will be frustrated. So I am in search of that which never
changes. If there is anything which never changes, only then does life
have any worth and meaning. Otherwise everything is futile." He based
his whole teaching on change.
This sutra is beautiful. This sutra says, "THROUGH CHANGE CONSUME
CHANGE." Buddha would never say the second part. The second part is
basically tantric. Buddha will say that everything is change; feel it,
and then you will not cling to it. And when you don't cling to it, by
and by, by leaving everything that changes, you will fall into yourself
to the center where there is no change. Just go on eliminating change,
and you will come to the unmoving, to the center -- the center of the
wheel. That is why Buddha has chosen the wheel as the symbol of his
religion: because the wheel moves, but the center on which it moves
remains unmoving. So the SANSARA -- the world -- moves like a wheel.
Your personality moves like a wheel, and your innermost essence remains
the center on which the wheel moves. It remains unmoving.
Buddha will say life is change. He will agree with the first part. The
next -- the second part -- is typically tantric: "THROUGH CHANGE CONSUME
CHANGE." Tantra says don't leave that which is changing; move into it.
Don't cling, but move. Why be afraid? Move into it, live it out. Allow
it to happen, and you move into it. Consume it through itself. Don't be
afraid, don't escape. Where will you escape? How can you escape?
Everywhere there is change. Tantra says everywhere is change. Where will
you escape? Where can you go?
Wherever you go the change will be there. All escape is futile, so don't
try to escape. Then what to do? Don't cling. Live the change, be the
change. Don't create any struggle with it. Move with it. The river is
flowing; you flow with it. Don't even swim; allow the river to take you.
Don't fight with it, don't waste your energy by fighting with it; just
relax. Be in a let-go and move with the river.
What will happen? If you can move with a river without any conflict,
without any direction of your own, if the river's direction is your
direction, suddenly you will become aware that you are not the river.
You will become aware that you are not the river! Feel it. Some day try
it in a river. Go there, relax, and allow the river to take you. Don't
fight; become the river. Suddenly you will feel that the river is all
around, but you are not the river.
In fighting you may forget this. That is why tantra says, "THROUGH
CHANGE CONSUME CHANGE." Don't fight. There is no need because in you the
change cannot enter. So don't be afraid. Live in the world. Don't be
afraid because in you the world cannot enter. Live it. Don't choose this
way or that.
There are two types of people: one that will cling to the world of
change and one that will escape. But tantra says it is change, so to
cling is futile and to escape also. What is the use? Buddha says, "What
is the use of remaining in the world of change?" Tantra says, "What is
the use of escaping from it?"
Both are futile. Rather, allow it to happen. You are not concerned with
it; it is happening, you are not even needed for it. You were not and
the world was changing, and you will not be and the world will go on
changing -- so why create any fuss about it?
"CONSUME CHANGE THROUGH CHANGE." This is a very deep message. Consume
anger through anger, consume sex through sex, consume greed through
greed, consume the SANSARA through the sansara. Don't fight with it, be
relaxed, because fight creates tensions and fight creates anxiety,
anguish, and you will be unnecessarily disturbed. Allow the world to be
as it is.
There are two types of persons. One type is those persons who cannot
allow the world to be as it is. They are called revolutionaries. They
will change it, they will struggle to change it. They will destroy their
whole life in changing it, and it is already changing. They are not
needed, they will only consume themselves. They will burn out in
changing the world, and it is already changing. No revolution is really
needed. The world is a revolution; it is changing.
You may wonder why India has not created great revolutionaries. It is
because of this insight that everything is already changing. Why are you
disturbed to change it? You can neither change it nor stop the change.
It IS changing. Why waste yourself?
One type of personality always tries to change the world. In religion's
eyes he is neurotic. Really, he is afraid of coming to himself, so he
goes on and becomes obsessed with the world. The state has to be
changed, the government has to be changed, the society, the structure,
the economics, everything has to be changed, and he will die, and he
will never have a moment of ecstasy in which he could know what he was,
and the world will continue and the wheel will go on moving. It has seen
many revolutionaries, and it goes on moving. Neither can you stop it nor
can you accelerate the change.
This is a mystic's attitude: mystics say there is no need to change the
world. But mystics are also of two types. One will say there is no need
to change the world, but there is a need to change oneself. He also
believes in changing -- not in changing the world, but himself.
But tantra says there is no need to change anyone -- neither the world
nor yourself. That is the deepest core of mysticism. You need not change
the world and you need not change yourself. You are just to know that
everything is changing, and to float in the change and relax in the
change.
And the moment there is no effort to create any change, you can relax
totally -- because if the effort is there you cannot relax. Then tension
will be there because in the future something of value is going to
happen: the world is going to change. The world is going to become
communistic, or the earthly paradise is to come, or some utopia in the
future, or you are going to enter into the Kingdom of God, or into
MOKSHA. Somewhere in paradise the angels are waiting to welcome you --
but "somewhere" is the future. With this attitude you are going to be
tense.
Tantra says forget it. The world is already changing and you are also
already changing. Change is existence, so don't become worried about it.
It is already happening without you; you are not needed. You just float
in it with no anxiety for the future, and suddenly amidst change you
will become aware of a center within you which never changes, which has
remained always as it is -- the same.
Why does it happen? Because if you are relaxed, then the changing
background gives you the contrast, and through it you can feel the
non-changing. If you are in any effort to change the world or yourself,
you cannot look at the small unmoving center within you. You are so much
obsessed with change, you are not able to have a look at what is the
case.
The change is all around. The change becomes the background, the
contrast, and you are relaxed. So there is no future in your mind -- no
future thoughts. You are here now; this moment is all. Everything is
changing, and suddenly you become aware of a point within you which has
never changed. "THROUGH CHANGE CONSUME CHANGE." This is what is meant by
"THROUGH CHANGE CONSUME CHANGE."
Don't fight. Through death become deathless; through death allow the
death to die. Don't fight with it. The tantra attitude is difficult to
conceive of, because our minds want to do something and this is a
non-doing. It is just relaxing, not doing, but this is one of the most
hidden secrets. If you can feel this, you need not bother about anything
else. This one technique can give you all.
Then you need not do anything because you have come to know the secret
that through change, change can be consumed, and through death, death
can be consumed, and through sex, sex can be consumed, and through
anger, anger can be consumed. Now you have come to know the secret that
through poison, poison can be consumed. |