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Vigyan Bhairav Tantra - Meditation
Technique 10 WHILE BEING
CARESSED, SWEET PRINCESS, ENTER THE CARESSING AS EVERLASTING LIFE.
Osho - Shiva starts with love. The first technique is concerned
with love, because love is the nearest thing in your experience in which
you are relaxed. If you cannot love, it is impossible for you to relax.
If you can relax, your life will become a loving life.
A tense man cannot love. Why? A tense man always lives with purposes. He
can earn money, but he cannot love because love is purposeless. Love is
not a commodity. You cannot accumulate it; you cannot make a bank
balance of it; you cannot strengthen your ego out of it. Really, love is
the most absurd act, with no meaning beyond it, no purpose beyond it. It
exists in itself, not for anything else.
You earn money FOR something -- it is a means. You build a house for
someone to live in -- it is a means. Love is not a means. Why do you
love? For what do you love? Love is the end in itself. That is why a
mind that is calculative, logical, a mind that thinks in terms of
purpose, cannot love. And the mind that always thinks in terms of
purpose will be tense, because purpose can only be fulfilled in the
future, never here and now.
You are building a house -- you cannot live in it just now, you will
have to build it first. You can live in it in the future, not now. You
earn money -- the bank balance will be created in the future, not now.
Means you will have to use now, and ends will come in the future.
Love is always here; there is no future to it. That is why love is so
near to meditation. That is why death is also so near to meditation --
because death is also always here and now, it can never happen in the
future. Can you die in the future? You can die only in the present. No
one has ever died in the future. How can you die in the future? Or how
can you die in the past? The past has gone, it is no more, so you cannot
die in it. The future has not yet come, so how can you die in it?
Death always occurs in the present. Death, love, meditation -- they all
occur in the present. So if you are afraid of death, you cannot love. If
you are afraid of love, you cannot meditate. If you are afraid of
meditation, your life will be useless. Useless not in the sense of any
purpose, but useless in the sense that you will never be able to feel
any bliss in it. It will be futile.
It may seem strange to connect these three: love, meditation, death. It
is not! They are similar experiences. So if you can enter in one, you
can enter in the remaining two.
Shiva starts with love. He says,
WHILE BEING CARESSED, SWEET PRINCESS, ENTER THE CARESSING AS
EVERLASTING LIFE
What does it mean? Many things! One: while you are being loved the past
has ceased, the future is not. You move in the dimension of the present.
You move in THE NOW. Have you ever loved someone? If you have ever
loved, then you know that the mind is no longer there.
That is why the so-called wise men say that lovers are blind, mindless,
mad. In essence what they say is right. Lovers ARE blind because they
have no eyes for the future, to calculate what they are going to do.
They are blind; they cannot see the past. What has happened to lovers?
They just move here and now without any consideration of past or future,
without any consideration of consequences. That is why they are called
blind. They are! They are blind for those who are calculating, and they
are seers for those who are not calculating. Those who are not
calculating will see love as the real eye, the real vision.
So the first thing: in the moment of love, past and future are no more.
Then, one delicate point is to be understood. When there is no past and
no future, can you call this moment the present? It is the present only
between the two -- between the past and the future. It is relative. If
there is no past and no future, what does it mean to call it the
present? It is meaningless. That is why Shiva doesn't use the word
`present'. He says, EVERLASTING LIFE. He means eternity... enter
eternity.
We divide time into three parts -- past, present, future. That division
is false, absolutely false. Time is really past and future. The present
is not part of time. The present is part of eternity. That which has
passed is time; that which is to come is time. That which is, is not
time because it never passes -- it is always here. The now is always
here. It is ALWAYS here! This now is eternal.
If you move from the past, you never move into the present. From the
past you always move into the future; there comes no moment which is
present. From the past you always move into the future. From the present
you can never move into the future. From the present you go deeper and
deeper, into more present and more present. This is everlasting life.
We may say it in this way: from past to future is time. Time means you
move on a plane, on a straight line. Or we may call it horizontal. The
moment you are in the present the dimension changes: you move vertically
-- up or down, toward the height or toward the depth. But then you never
move horizontally. A Buddha, a Shiva, live in eternity, not in time.
Jesus was asked, "What will happen in your kingdom of God?" The man who
asked him was not asking about time. He was asking about what is going
to happen to his desires, about how they will be fulfilled. He was
asking whether there will be life everlasting or whether there will be
death; whether there be any misery, whether there will be inferior and
superior men. He was asking things of this world when he asked, "What is
going to happen in your kingdom of God?" And Jesus replied -- the reply
is like that of a Zen monk -- "There shall be time no longer."
The man who was replied to in this way may not have understood at all:
"There shall be time no longer." Only this one thing Jesus said --
"There shall be time no longer," because time is horizontal and the
kingdom of God is vertical... it is eternal. It is always here! You have
only to move away from time to enter into it.
So love is the first door. Through it, you can move away from time. That
is why everyone wants to be loved, everyone wants to love. And no one
knows why so much significance is given to love, why there is such a
deep longing for love. And unless you know it rightly, you can neither
love nor be loved, because love is one of the deepest phenomena upon
this earth.
We go on thinking that everyone is capable of love as he is. This is not
the case -- it is not so. That is why you are frustrated. Love is a
different dimension, and if you try to love someone in time you will be
defeated in your effort. In time, love is not possible.
I remember one anecdote. Meera was in love with Krishna. She was a
housewife -- the wife of a prince. The prince became jealous of Krishna.
Krishna was no more; Krishna was not present, Krishna was not a physical
body. There was a gap of five thousand years between Krishna's physical
existence and Meera's physical existence. So really, how can Meera be in
love with Krishna? The time gap was so great.
One day the prince, her husband, asked Meera, "You go on talking about
your love, you go on dancing and singing around Krishna, but where is
he? With whom are you so much in love? With whom are you talking
continuously?" Meera was talking with Krishna, singing, laughing,
fighting. She looked mad -- she was, in our eyes. The prince said, "Have
you gone mad? Where is your Krishna? Whom are you loving? With whom are
you conversing? I am here, and you have completely forgotten me."
Meera said, "Krishna is here -- you are not here -- because Krishna is
eternal; you are not. He will always be here, he was always here, he is
here. You will not be here; you were not here. You were not here one
day, you will not be here another day, so how can I believe that between
these two non-existences you are here? How is an existence possible
between two non-existences?"
The prince is in time, but Krishna is in eternity. So you can be near
the prince, but the distance cannot be destroyed. You will be distant.
You may be very, very distant in time from Krishna, but you can be near.
It is a different dimension, however.
I look in front of me and there is a wall; I move my eyes and there is a
sky. When you look in time there is always a wall. When you look beyond
time there is the open sky... infinite. Love opens the infinity, the
everlastingness of existence. So really, if you have ever loved, love
can be made a technique of meditation. This is the technique: WHILE
BEING LOVED, SWEET PRINCESS, ENTER LOVING AS EVERLASTING LIFE.
Do not be a lover standing aloof, outside. Become loving and move into
eternity. When you are loving someone, are you there as the lover? If
you are there, then you are in time and love is just false, just pseudo.
If you are still there and you can say, "I am," then you can be
physically near but spiritually you are poles apart.
While in love, YOU must not be -- only love, only loving. Become loving.
While caressing your lover or beloved become the caress. While kissing,
do not be the kisser or the kissed -- be the kiss. Forget the ego
completely, dissolve it into the act. Move into the act so deeply that
the actor is no more. And if you cannot move into love, it is difficult
to move into eating or walking -- very difficult, because love is the
easiest approach for dissolving the ego. That is why those who are
egoists cannot love. They may talk about it, they may sing about it,
they may write about it, but they cannot love. The ego cannot love!
Shiva says, become loving. When you are in the embrace, become the
embrace, become the kiss. Forget yourself so totally that you can say,
"I am no more. Only love exists." Then the heart is not beating but love
is beating. Then the blood is not circulating, love is circulating. And
eyes are not seeing, love is seeing. Then hands are not moving to touch,
love is moving to touch.
Become love and enter everlasting life. Love suddenly changes your
dimension. You are thrown out of time and you are facing eternity. Love
can become a deep meditation -- the deepest possible. Lovers have known
sometimes what saints have not known. And lovers have touched that
center which many yogis have missed. But it will be just a glimpse
unless you transform your love into meditation. Tantra means this: the
transformation of love into meditation. And now you can understand why
tantra talks so much about love and sex. Why? Because love is the
easiest natural door from where you can transcend this world, this
horizontal dimension.
Look at Shiva with his consort, Devi. Look at them! They don't seem to
be two -- they are one. The oneness is so deep that it has even gone
into symbols. We all have seen the Shivalinga. It is a phallic symbol --
Shiva's sex organ -- but it is not alone, it is based in Devi's vagina.
The Hindus of the old days were very daring. Now when you see a
Shivalinga you never remember that it is a phallic symbol. We have
forgotten; we have tried to forget it completely.
Jung remembers in his autobiography, in his memoirs, a very beautiful
and funny incident. He came to India and went to see Konark, and in the
temple of Konark there are many, many Shivalingas, many phallic symbols.
The pundit who was taking him around explained everything to him except
the Shivalingas. And they were so many, it was difficult to escape this.
Jung was well aware, but just to tease the pundit he went on asking,
"But what are these?" So the pundit at last said into his ear, in Jung's
ear, "Do not ask me here, I will tell you afterwards. This is a private
thing."
Jung must have laughed inside -- these are the Hindus of today. Then
outside the temple the pundit came near and said, "It was not good of
you to ask before others. I will tell you now. It is a secret." And then
again in Jung's ear he said, "They are our private parts."
When Jung went back, he met one great scholar -- a scholar of oriental
thought, mythology, philosophy -- Heinrich Zimmer. He related this
anecdote to Zimmer. Zimmer was one of the most gifted minds who ever
tried to penetrate Indian thought and he was a lover of India and of its
ways of thinking -- of the oriental non-logical, mystic approach toward
life. When he heard this from Jung, he laughed and said, "This is good
for a change. I have always heard about great Indians -- Buddha,
Krishna, Mahavir. What you relate says something not about any great
Indians, but about Indians."
Love for Shiva is the great gate. And for him sex is not something to be
condemned. For him sex is the seed and love is the flowering of it, and
if you condemn the seed you condemn the flower. Sex can become love. If
it never becomes love then it is crippled. Condemn the crippledness, not
the sex. Love must flower, sex must become love. If it is not becoming
it is not the fault of sex, it is your fault.
Sex must not remain sex; that is the tantra teaching. It must be
transformed into love. And love also must not remain love. It must be
transformed into light, into meditative experience, into the last,
ultimate mystic peak. How to transform love? Be the act and forget the
actor. While loving, be love -- simply love. Then it is not your love or
my love or anybody else's -- it is simply LOVE. When you are not there,
when you are in the hands of the ultimate source, or current, when you
are in love, it is not you who is in love. When the love has engulfed
you, you have disappeared; you have just become a flowing energy.
D. H. Lawrence, one of the most creative minds of this age, was
knowingly or unknowingly a tantra adept. He was condemned in the West
completely, his books were banned. There were many cases in the courts
only because he had said, "Sex energy is the only energy, and if you
condemn it and suppress it you are against the universe. Then you will
never be capable of knowing the higher flowering of this energy. And
when it is suppressed it becomes ugly -- this is the vicious circle."
Priests, moralists, so-called religious people -- popes, shankaracharyas
and others -- they go on condemning sex. They say that this is an ugly
thing. And when you suppress it, it becomes ugly. So they say, "Look!
What we said is true. It is proved by you. Look! Whatsoever you are
doing is ugly and you know it is ugly."
But it is not sex which is ugly, it is these priests who have made it
ugly. Once they have made it ugly they are proved right. And when they
are proved right you go on making it more and more ugly.
Sex is innocent energy -- life flowing in you, existence alive in you.
Do not cripple it! Allow it to move toward the heights. That is, sex
must become love. What is the difference? When your mind is sexual you
are exploiting the other; the other is just an instrument to be used and
thrown away. When sex becomes love the other is not an instrument, the
other is not to be exploited; the other is not really the other. When
you love, it is not self-centered. Rather, the other becomes
significant, unique.
It is not that you are exploiting him -- no! On the contrary, you both
are joined in a deep experience. You are partners of a deep experience,
not the exploiter and the exploited. You are helping each other to move
into a different world of love. Sex is exploitation. Love is moving
together into a different world.
If this moving is not momentary and if this moving becomes meditative --
that is, if you can forget yourself completely and the lover and the
beloved disappear, and there is only love flowing -- then, says Shiva,
everlasting life is yours.
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