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Vigyan Bhairav Tantra - Meditation
Technique 26
WHEN SOME DESIRE COMES, CONSIDER IT. THEN, SUDDENLY,
QUIT IT.
Osho -
This is a different dimension of the same technique.
WHEN SOME DESIRE COMES, CONSIDER IT. THEN, SUDDENLY, QUIT IT.
You feel a desire -- a desire for sex, a desire for love, a desire for
food, anything. You feel a desire: consider it. When the sutra says
consider it, it means do not think for or against it, just consider the
desire, what it is.
A sexual desire comes to the mind. You say, "This is bad." This is not
consideration. You have been taught that this is bad, so you are not
considering this desire, you are consulting the scriptures, you are
consulting the past -- the past teachers, the RISHIS -- sages. You are
not considering the desire itself, you are considering something else.
You are considering many things; your conditioning, your upbringing,
your education, your culture, your civilization, your religion -- but
not the desire.
This simple desire has come. Do not bring in the mind, the past, the
education, the conditioning; do not bring in values. Just consider this
desire -- what it is. If your mind could be washed completely of all
that has been given to you by the society, of all that your parents have
given to you -- the education, the culture -- if your total mind could
be washed out, the desire for sex will arise. It will arise, because
that desire is not given to you by the society. That desire is
biologically built in; it is in you.
For example, if a child is born and no language is taught, the child
will not learn any language. He will remain without language. A language
is a social phenomenon; it has to be taught. But when the right moment
comes, the child will feel sexual desire. That is not a social
phenomenon, it is biologically built in. The desire will come at the
right mature moment. It is not social, it is biological -- deeper. It is
built into your cells.
Because you were born out of sex, every cell of your body is a sex cell;
you consist of sex cells. Unless your biology can be washed off
completely, the desire will be there. It will come -- it is already
there. When a child is born the desire is already there, because the
child is a by-product of a sexual meeting. He comes through sex; his
whole body is built with sex cells. The desire is there, only a time is
needed before his body becomes mature enough to feel that desire, to
enact that desire. The desire will be there whether you are taught that
sex is bad or good, whether you are not taught that sex is hell or
heaven, whether you are taught this way or that way, for or against --
because both are teachings.
The old traditions, the old religions, Christianity particularly, they
go on preaching against sex. The new cults of hippies and yippies and
others have started the opposite movement. They say sex is good, sex is
ecstatic, sex is the only real thing in the world. Both are teachings.
Do not consider your desire according to some teaching. Just consider
the desire in its purity, as it is -- a fact. Do not interpret it.
Consideration here means not interpreting, but just looking at the fact
as it is. The desire is there: look at it directly, immediately. Do not
bring in your thoughts or ideas, because no thought is yours and no idea
is yours. Everything has been given to you, every idea is a borrowed
thing. No thought is original -- no thought can be original. Do not
bring in thinking, just look at the desire, at what it is, as if you do
not know anything about it. Face it! Encounter it! That is what is meant
by CONSIDER IT.
WHEN SOME DESIRE COMES, CONSIDER IT.
Just look at the fact -- at what it is. Unfortunately, it is one of the
most difficult things to do. Compared to this, reaching to the moon is
not so difficult or reaching to the peak of Everest is not so difficult.
It is highly complicated -- reaching to the moon is highly complicated,
infinitely complicated, a very complex phenomenon. But compared to
living with a fact of the inner mind it is nothing, because the mind is
so subtly involved in everything you do. It is always there. Look at the
word... If I say, "Sex," the moment I say it you have decided for or
against. The moment I say, "Sex," you have interpreted: "This is not
good. This is bad." Or, "This is good." You have interpreted even the
word.
Many persons came to me when the book FROM SEX TO SUPERCONSCIOUSNESS was
published. They came and they said, "Please change the title. The very
word `sex' makes them disturbed -- they have not read the book. And
those who have already read the book also say to change the title.
Why? The very word gives you a certain interpretation. Mind is so
interpretive that if I say "Lemon juice," your saliva starts flowing.
You have interpreted the words. In the words `lemon juice' there is
nothing like lemon, but your saliva starts flowing. If I wait for a few
moments, you will become uneasy because you will have to swallow. The
mind has interpreted; it has come in. Even with words you cannot remain
aloof, without interpreting. It will be very difficult, when a desire
arises, to remain aloof, to remain just a dispassionate observer, calm
and quiet, looking at the fact, not interpreting it.
I say, "This man is a Mohammedan" The moment I say, "This man is a
Mohammedan," the Hindu has thought that this man is bad. If I say, "This
man is a Jew," the Christian has decided that this man is not good. The
very word `Jew', and in the Christian mind comes the interpretation; the
traditional, conventional idea flares up. This Jew is not to be
considered, the old interpretation will have to be imposed on this Jew.
Every Jew is a different Jew. Every Hindu is a different, unique
individual. You cannot interpret him because you know other Hindus. You
may have come to conclude that all the Hindus you have known are bad,
but this Hindu is not in your experience. You are interpreting this
Hindu according to your past experience. Do not interpret,
interpretation is not consideration. Consideration means consider THIS
fact -- absolutely this fact. Remain with this fact.
Rishis have said that sex is bad. It may have been bad for them; you do
not know. You have the desire, a fresh desire, with you. Consider it,
look at it, be attentive to it. THEN, SUDDENLY, QUIT IT.
There are two parts to this technique. First, remain with the fact --
aware, attentive of what is happening. When you feel a sexual desire,
what is happening in you? See how you become feverish, how your body
begins to tremble, how you feel a sudden madness creeping in, how you
feel as if you are possessed by something else. Feel it, consider it. Do
not exercise any judgement, just move into this fact -- the fact of
sexual desire. Do not say it is bad!
If you have said that, the consideration has stopped, you have closed
the door. Now your face is not toward the desire -- your back is. You
have moved away from it. You have missed a moment in which you could
have gone deep down into your biological layer of being. You are
clinging to the social layer, which is the uppermost.
Sex is deeper than your SHASTRAS -- scriptures -- because it is
biological. If all the shastras can be destroyed -- and they can be
destroyed, many times they have been -- your interpretation will be
lost. But sex will remain; it is deeper. Do not bring superficial things
in. Just consider the fact and move within, and feel what is happening
to you. What happened to particular rishis, to Mohammed and Mahavir, is
irrelevant. What is happening to you this very moment? This alive
moment, what is happening to you?
Consider it, observe it. And then the second part... this is really
beautiful. Shiva says, THEN, SUDDENLY, QUIT IT.
SUDDENLY -- remember. Do not say, "This is bad, so I am going to leave
it. I am not going to move with this idea, this desire. This is bad,
this is sin, so I will stop it, I will suppress it." Then a suppression
will happen, but not a meditative state of mind. And suppression is
really creating by your own hands a deceived being and mind.
Suppression is psychological. You are disturbing the whole mechanism and
suppressing energies which are going to burst out any day. The energy is
there, you have simply suppressed it. It has not moved out, it has not
moved in, you have simply suppressed it. It has simply moved sideways.
It will wait and it will become perverted, and perverted energy is the
basic problem with man.
Psychological diseases are by-products of perverted energy. Then it will
take such shapes, such forms, which are not even imaginable, and in
those forms it will try again to be expressed. And when it is expressed
in a perverted form, it leads you into a very, very deep anguish,
because there is no satisfaction in any perverted form. And you cannot
remain perverted, you have to express it. Suppression creates
perversion. This sutra is not concerned with suppression. This sutra is
not saying to control, this sutra is not saying to suppress.
The sutra says, SUDDENLY, QUIT IT. What to do? The desire is there; you
have considered. If you have considered it, it will not be difficult;
the second part will be easy. If you have not considered it, look at
your mind. Your mind will be thinking, "This is good. If we can quit
sexual desire suddenly, this is beautiful." You would like to do it, but
your liking is not the question. Your liking may not be your liking, but
just the society's. Your liking may not be your own consideration, but
just tradition. First consider, do not create any liking or disliking.
Just consider, and then the second part becomes easy -- you can quit the
desire.
How to quit it? When you have considered a thing totally, it is very
easy; it is as easy as dropping this paper from my hand. QUIT IT... What
will happen? A desire is there. You have not suppressed it and it is
moving out, it is coming up; it has stirred your whole being. Really,
when you consider a desire without interpretation your whole being will
become a desire.
When sex is there and if you are not against it or for it, if you have
no mind about it, then just by looking at the desire, your whole being
will be involved in it. A single sex desire will become a flame. Your
whole being will be concentrated in the flame, as if you have totally
become sexual. It will not only be at the sex center, it will spread all
over the body. Every fiber of your body will be trembling. The passion
will have become a flame. Now, quit it. Don't fight with it, simply say,
"I quit it."
What will happen? The moment you can simply say, "I quit," a separation
happens. Your body -- your passionate body, your body filled with sex
desire -- and you become two. Suddenly, in a moment, they are two poles
apart. The body is writhing with passion and sex, and the center is
silent, observing. No fight is there, just a separation -- remember
this. In fight you are not separate. When you are fighting you are one
with the object. When you have just quit it, you are separate. Now you
can look at it as if someone else is there, not you.
One of my friends was with me for many years. He was a constant chain
smoker, and he tried and tried, as smokers do, not to smoke. One day,
suddenly in the morning, he would decide, "Now I am not going to smoke,"
and by the evening he would be smoking again. And he would feel guilty
and he would defend it, and then for a few days he would not gather
courage again to decide not to smoke. Then he would forget what
happened. Then one day, again he would say, "Now I am not going to
smoke," and I would just laugh because this had happened so many times.
Then he himself became fed up with the whole thing -- with this smoking
and then deciding not to smoke, and this constant vicious circle.
He wondered what to do. He asked me what to do, so I told him, "Do not
be against smoking -- that is the first thing to do. Smoke, and be with
it. For seven days do not be against it; do this thing."
He said, "What are you telling me? I have been against it, and even then
I could not leave it, and you are saying not to be against it. Then
there is no possibility of leaving it."
So I told him, "You have tried with the inimical attitude and you have
been a failure. Now try the other -- the friendly attitude. Do not be
against it for seven days."
Immediately he said, "Then will I be able to leave it?"
So I told him, "Then again... you are still inimical toward it. Do not
think about leaving it at all. How can one think about leaving a friend?
For seven days just forget it. Remain with it, cooperate with it, smoke
as deeply as possible, as lovingly as possible. When you are smoking,
just forget everything; become the smoking. Be totally at ease with it,
in deep communion with it. For seven days, smoke as much as you like and
forget about leaving it."
These seven days became a consideration. He could look at the fact of
smoking. He was not against it, so now he could face it. When you are
against something, or someone, you cannot face it. The very being
against becomes a barrier. You cannot consider... How can you consider
an enemy? You cannot look at him, you cannot look into his eyes; it is
difficult to face him. You can look deeply only into the eyes of one you
love; then you penetrate deep. Otherwise eyes can never meet.
So he looked into the fact deeply. For seven days he considered it. He
was not against, so the energy was there, the mind was there, and it
became a meditation. He had to cooperate with it; he had to become the
smoker. After seven days he forgot to tell me. I was waiting for him to
say, "Now the seven days have ended, so now how can I leave it?" He
forgot completely about the seven days. Three weeks passed and then I
asked him, "Have you forgotten completely?"
He said, "The experience has been so beautiful, I do not want to think
about anything else now. It is beautiful, and for the first time I am
not struggling with the fact. I am just feeling what is happening to
me."
Then I told him, "Whenever you feel the urge to smoke, simply quit." He
didn't ask me how to quit it, he had simply considered the whole thing
and the whole thing became so childish, and there was no struggle. So I
said, "When you feel again the urge to smoke, consider it, look at it,
and leave it. Take the cigarette in your hand, stop for a moment, then
leave the cigarette. Let it drop, and as the cigarette drops let the
urge also drop inside."
He didn't ask me how to do it, because consideration makes one capable
-- you can do it. And if you cannot do it, remember, you have not
considered the fact. Then you were against it, all the time thinking how
to leave it. Then you cannot quit it. When suddenly the urge is there
and you quit it, the whole energy takes a jump inward. The technique is
the same, only the dimensions differ:
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