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Vigyan Bhairav Tantra - Meditation
Technique 69
SINCE, IN TRUTH, BONDAGE AND FREEDOM ARE RELATIVE,
THESE WORDS ARE ONLY FOR THOSE TERRIFIED WITH THE UNIVERSE. THIS
UNIVERSE IS A REFLECTION OF MINDS. AS YOU SEE MANY SUNS IN WATER FROM
ONE SUN, SO SEE BONDAGE AND LIBERATION.
This is a very deep technique, one of the deepest, and only very rare
minds have tried it. Zen is based on this technique. This technique is
saying a very difficult thing -- difficult to comprehend, not difficult
to experience. But first comprehension is needed.
This sutra says that the world and NIRVANA are not two things, they are
one; that heaven and hell are not two things, they are one; and that
bondage and liberation are not two things, they are one. It is difficult
because we can only conceive of something easily if it is in terms of
polar opposites.
We say that this world is bondage, so how to get out of this world and
be liberated? Then liberation is something which is opposite, which is
not bondage. But this sutra says that both are the same -- liberation
and bondage -- and unless you are freed from both you are not freed.
Bondage binds, and liberation also. Bondage is a slavery, and liberation
is also.
Try to understand this. Look at a person who is trying to go beyond
bondage. What is he doing? He leaves his home, he leaves his family, he
leaves the riches, he leaves the things of the world, he leaves society
just to get out of bondage, out of the fetters of the world. Then he
creates new fetters for himself. Those fetters are negative.
I have seen one saint who cannot touch money. He is respected -- he is
bound to be respected by those who are mad after money. He has moved to
the other pole. If you put money in his hand, he will throw it as if
there were some poison or as if you have put some scorpion in his hand.
He will throw it and he will become scared. A subtle trembling comes to
his body. What is happening? He has been fighting with money. He must
have been a greedy man -- too much greed. Only then can he move to this
extreme. He may have been too much obsessed with money. He is still
obsessed, but now in the reverse direction. However, the obsession is
still there.
I have seen one sannyasin who cannot look at any female face. He becomes
afraid. He will always look down, he will never look up if some woman is
there. What is the problem? He must have been too much sexual, obsessed
with sex. He is still obsessed, but then he was running after this woman
or that and now he is running from women -- from this one and that. But
he is still obsessed with women. Whether he is running after or running
from, his obsession remains. He thinks that now he is liberated from
women, but this is a new bondage. You cannot become liberated by
reaction. The thing you go against will bind you negatively; you cannot
escape it. If someone is against the world and for liberation, he cannot
be liberated; he will remain in the world. The attitude of being against
is a bondage.
This sutra is very deep, it says "SINCE IN TRUTH, BONDAGE AND FREEDOM
ARE RELATED..." They are not opposite, they are relative. What is
freedom? You say, "Not bondage." And what is bondage? You say, "Not
freedom." You can define them by each other. They are just like hot and
cold, not opposite. What is hot and what is cold? They are just degrees
of the same phenomenon -- degrees of temperature -- but the phenomenon
is the same, and they are relative. If there is in one bucket cold water
and in another there is hot water and you put in both your hands -- one
hand in the hot and one in the cold -- what will you feel? A difference
of degrees.
And if at first you cool down both your hands on ice and then you put
both your hands into the hot and the cold water, what will happen? Now
again you will feel a difference. Your cold hand will now feel more hot
in the hot water than it felt before. And if your other hand has become
cold, much colder than the cold water, then that water will now look
hot; you will not feel it as cool. It is relative. There are only
degrees of difference, but the phenomenon is the same.
Tantra says that bondage and liberation, SANSARA and MOKSHA, are not two
things, but a relative phenomenon -- of the same thing. So tantra is
unique. Tantra says that you have to be liberated not only from bondage;
you have to be liberated from MOKSHA also. Unless you are liberated from
both, you are not Liberated.
So the first thing: don't try to go against anything because you will
move to something which belongs to it. It looks opposite, but it is not.
Don't move from sex to BRAHMACHARYA. If you are trying to move from sex
to BRAHMACHARYA, your BRAHMACHARYA will be nothing but sexuality. Don't
move from greed to no-greed because that no-greed will again be a subtle
greed. That is why if a tradition teaches to be non- greedy, it gives
you some profit motive in it.
I was staying with a saint, and he told his followers, "If you leave
greed you will get much in the other world. If you leave greed, you will
gain much in the other world!" Those who are greedy, greedy for the
other world, will be influenced by this. They may be motivated, and they
will be ready to leave many things to gain. But the motive to gain
remains; otherwise how can a greedy man move toward non-greed? Some
motive must be there which fulfills his greed deeply.
So don't create opposite poles. All opposites are related; they are
degrees of the same phenomenon. If you become aware of this, you will
say that both poles are the same. If you can feel this, that both poles
are the same, and if this feeling deepens, you will be liberated from
both. Then you are neither for SANSARA nor for MOKSHA. Really, then you
are not asking for anything; you have stopped asking. In that stopping,
you are liberated. In that feeling that everything is the same, the
future will have dropped. Where can you move now? Sex and BRAHMACHARYA
both are the same, so where is one to move? And if greed and non-greed
are the same and violence and nonviolence are the same, where has one to
move?
There is nowhere to move. Then movement ceases; there is no future. You
cannot desire anything because all desires will be the same; the
difference will be just of degrees. What can you desire? Sometimes I ask
people -- when they come to me, I ask them -- "What do you really
desire?" Their desire is based in them as they are. If they are greedy,
they desire nongreed; if they are sexual, obsessed with sex, they desire
BRAHMACHARYA, how to be beyond sex, because they are miserable in their
sex.
But this desire for BRAHMACHARYA is based, rooted, in their sexuality.
They ask, "How to get out of this world?" The world is too much on them,
they are too much burdened and they are clinging too much, because the
world cannot burden you unless you cling to it. The burden is in your
head -- not because of the burden, but because of you, you are carrying
it. And they are carrying the whole world; then they get burdened. And
in this experience of misery there arises a new desire for the opposite,
so then they start hankering for the opposite.
They were running after money, so now they run after meditation. They
were running after something in this world; now they are running after
something in that world. But the running remains, and the running is the
problem. The object is irrelevant. Desire is the problem. What you
desire is meaningless. You desire, that is the problem, and you go on
changing objects. Today you desire A, tomorrow you desire B, and you
think you are changing. Then the day after tomorrow you desire C, and
you think you are transformed. BUT you are the same. You desired A, you
desired B, you desired C, and A-B-C are not you. You desire -- that is
you, and that remains the same. You desire bondage, then you get
frustrated, fed up; then you desire liberation. You desire, and desire
is the bondage.
So you cannot desire liberation. Desire is bondage, so you cannot desire
liberation. When desire ceases, liberation is. That is why this sutra
says, "IN TRUTH, BONDAGE AND FREEDOM ARE RELATIVE." So don't become
obsessed with the opposite.
"These words are only for those terrified with the universe." These
words of bondage and freedom are for those who are terrified with the
universe.
"THIS UNIVERSE IS THE REFLECTION OF MINDS." Whatsoever you see in this
universe is a reflection. If it looks like bondage, it means it is your
reflection. If it looks like liberation, again it is your reflection.
"AS YOU SEE MANY SUNS IN WATER FROM ONE SUN, SO SEE BONDAGE AND
LIBERATION." The sun rises, and there are many ponds -- dirty and pure,
big and small, beautiful and ugly -- and one sun reflects in many ponds.
One who goes on counting the reflections will think that there are many,
many suns. One who looks not into the reflections but to the reality
will see one. The world, as you look at it, reflects you. If you are
sexual, the whole world seems sexual. If you are a thief, the whole
world seems to be in the same profession.
Once Mulla Nasruddin and his wife were fishing, and the place was
restricted; only license holders could fish there. Suddenly a policeman
appeared, so Mulla's wife said, "Mulla, you have the license so you run
away. Meanwhile, I will escape."
So Mulla started running. He ran and ran and ran, and the policeman
followed. Of course, Mulla left the wife there, and the policeman
followed him. Mulla ran and ran until he felt that now his heart would
explode. But by that time the policeman caught hold of him. The
policeman was also perspiring, and he said, "Where is your license?" So
Mulla produced his papers. The policeman looked at them and they were
okay. So he said, "Why are you running, Nasruddin? Why did you run
away?"
Nasruddin said, "I am going to a doctor, and he says after every meal to
run for half a mile."
The policeman said, "Okay, but you saw me running after you, chasing
you, yelling, so why didn't you stop?"
Nasruddin said, "I thought that maybe you go to the same doctor."
It is logical; it is what is happening. Whatsoever you see all around
you is more a reflection of you than of any real thing there. You look
at yourself mirrored everywhere. The moment you change, the reflection
changes. The moment you become totally silent, the whole world becomes
silent. The world is not a bondage: bondage is a reflection. And the
world is not liberation; liberation is again a reflection.
A Buddha finds the whole world in NIRVANA. A Krishna finds the whole
world celebrating in ecstasy, in bliss; there is no misery. But tantra
says that whatsoever you see is a reflection unless all seeing
disappears and only the mirror is seen with nothing reflected in it.
That is the truth.
If something is seen, it is just a reflection. Truth is one; many can
only be reflections. Once this is understood -- not theoretically, but
existentially, through experience -- you are liberated, liberated from
both bondage and liberation.
Naropa, when he became enlightened, was asked by someone, "Have you
achieved liberation now?"
Naropa said, "Yes and no both. Yes, I am not in bondage, and no because
that liberation was also a reflection of bondage. I thought about it
because of bondage."
Look at it in this way: you are ill then you long for health. That
longing for health is part of your illness. If you are really healthy,
you will not long for health. How will you? If you are really healthy,
where is the longing? What is the need? If you are really healthy, you
never feel that you are healthy. Only ill, diseased persons feel that
they are healthy. What is the need? How can you feel that you are
healthy? If you are born healthy and you have never been ill, will you
be able to feel your health? Health is there, but it cannot be felt. It
can be felt only through contrast, through the opposite. Only through
the opposite are things felt. If you are ill, you can feel health -- and
if you are feeling health, remember, you are still ill.
So Naropa says, "Yes and no both. `Yes' because there is no bondage now,
but with the bondage liberation has also disappeared; that is why `No'.
It was part of it. Now I am beyond both -- neither in bondage nor in
liberation."
Don't make religion a search, a desire. Don't make MOKSHA, Liberation,
NIRVANA, an object of desiring. It happens when there is no desiring.
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