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Question - I have been thinking of becoming a Sannyasin for at least seven years. Why am I not able to take the jump? Osho - It seems you are not aware of death at all. If you are aware of death you cannot postpone like that. And now, because you have been postponing for seven years, postponement must have become a habit. You have practised it long; you have become too attached to postponing. Postponement gives you a good feeling. First, it is not risky; you need not change. You are always going to change tomorrow, and the tomorrow never comes. So meanwhile you can remain the same as you are. The tomorrow becomes a protection: ”Tomorrow I will become a sannyasin. So today, whatsoever I am, I HAVE to be. It is only the question of one day: tomorrow I will become a sannyasin and I will take the jump.” And when tomorrow comes, it always comes as today. Now, for seven years you have been practising postponement. It must have become a kind of addiction. Remember, death can happen any moment. Those who are aware of death, they drop postponement, because tomorrow is not certain. Only this moment is certain, the moment that is already in your hands. Even the next moment is not certain. So if you see something valuable in a thing, do it! And do it NOW. Remember it: now or never. If you don’t want to do it, who is telling you to do it? Forget all about it. But please don’t postpone. Either decide ”I am not going to take sannyas” – and that’s perfectly good. At least decisiveness will be there, your worry will be dropped. Decide ”I am not going to take sannyas” and be finished with it. Or take the jump and be finished with it. A male dinosaur and a female dinosaur were having an affair. For ten million years they walked around, talking and looking into each other’s eyes. Then they would sometimes hold hands, and this continued for twenty million years more. For the next fifteen million years they would kiss and touch each other all over. Then finally the male said to the female, ”Dear, we have been together for so many years, how do you feel about... you know, I think it is time we made love!” ”I want to but I can’t” she answered. ”I have now got my period for the next seventy million years.” You are not a dinosaur, time is very short. Life is very small. Out of a seventy-year life span, almost thirty-five years are lost in sleep. And then eating, drinking, dressing, going to the office, coming to the house... then earning the bread – and the friends and the clubs and the hotels and the movies and the TV. Just count, and you will not find even one year to live. You will not find even one year left to live. You will not even find one year out of seventy years to meditate, to search, to be. It is already too much that you have spent seven years thinking of sannyas. Either take it or forget all about it, but be decisive. To remain so indecisive for so long is dangerous because then indecisiveness becomes your nature. Source- Osho Book "Unio Mystica, Vol 1" Related Link: |
